Friday, August 19, 2011

The Side Effects of Inactiveness or, "Ah, the Pitiness of Being Overwhelmed"

I have to remind myself at times that things in the world and focusing on the world itself (and the like) does not bring fulfillment. I started journaling immensely about two weeks ago. The last couple of days, however, I've been resorting to my lazy-self. In other words, I've allowed inactiveness to take over my control, and have even been snearing at the idea of journaling what I'm feeling.

I am also reminded that although there is so much I can do, in terms of writing, working, and talking to others, I can't do everything at once. (Not to put a limit on the latter, which is important.) But hey, we've all been there.

I'm at a loss for words now, as I'm trying to decide what I want to do at the library here. Like I said, there are so many things I could do, but I can't do everything at once. (Ah, the pitiness of being overwhelmed.)

Thursday, August 18, 2011

The Significance of Humility

In general, I am a humble person. Some may see that as childish or inactive at times, depending on the situation, but here's the thing: My humility is not an illustration of me in, say, grade school, nor is it an illustration of me as stupid. It is an illustration of my growth and development as a human being - physically, mentally, and spiritually. It doesn't mean that I'm perfect (by no means! If it did, I'd be role playing). Rather, it shows a dependence and a surrender of control to a higher authority. I am gradually learning this more everyday.

Humility and honest are two of the most important qualities in every person's life. Without them, things like favoritism and power can potentially consume us. Here are a few other things to consider:
- "Do not think of yourselves higher than others"
- Remember and understand the essence of ensemble/community and valuing others than yourself. (Hebrews 13:3 is a great biblical example)
- Living like you have the attitude of a student can be benefitial - that is, living as someone who is still learning, including what it means to be mature

Still here (humbly and honestly),
B.E.

Thursday, August 4, 2011

Random Thoughts: Update 8/04/2011

I'm still overwhelmed by so many things, some of which include not having a job, not having a car, and feeling like I haven't really gotten anywhere the last several weeks. In addition, I've been overwhelmed by the thought of so many things I could do: I could write, I could act, I could volunteer for non-profit organizations, etc.. This is how I was feeling this past weekend. I've been doing better the last few days, though. I made a list yesterday of suggestions for what to do, in terms of where I'm currently at and what I feel led to do.

As I've mentioned to most of you or as most of you probably know, I've been focusing on writing and have continued developing ideas for books, screenplays (one of which I'm presently working on), and other articles and concepts. I also plan to update numerous movie reviews--rather, write reviews based on notes I've taken the last couple of years. (I know, it's a lot.)

I still have the thought of doing acting as a secondary thing, even though that's what I majored in. I actually will be performing in a one act next month, which will be a 9/11 memorial.

In terms of doing voice work, I've been debating whether I want to look for agents or buy tapes and/or CDs on how to do voice work. I think what I'm going to do for the time being is just make a tape with all the voices and impressions I can do, and save it for future reference.

Lastly, I'm mildly considering reading in libraries, since I still admire certain kids books and like working with kids. Either that, or I can volunteer and/or sign up for opportunities with AmeriCorps.

My prayer in all of this is for diligence, pressing on, and surrendering control. More info coming soon from yours truly.

B.E.